You should study a more practical art, like magick.

http://www.ted.com/talks/lang/nl/bre...erability.html

fear to love
maybe a wrong thing to say for around this moment
when many childeren are not here any more

what is it then?
love mixed with fear
or is then on it's own turn a fear of not having something to love

when i'm calm i can get out of these difficultness emotions
when i'm not calm it's ordinairy stress
have not a weapon of control ready for every second of my life
and if you feel surtain of yourself
then other feels less surtain and that was not the intention

and so i don't know when i grow older
pass faster trough groups of people or individual people i meet in the everyday life

when younger had more difficulties
in understanding the world
didn't know anything of psychology or any other thing brain and body
that changed

think it also sometimes speed, inside of everthing, and let others be in their speed
and if i act inperfect towards expectations
or others
as i think is also a vulnerability
it's their degree of procces in their life
there is a degree experience individually in everyone

from where this expectation
is a misforming of humans that they got by religion

the live a 24 hour paradise and how to exactly act when you are there

is there no rational prevention that
what we see is ancient universe
it's new what we discover
we also discover new cities nearby pyramids

this can indicate better what is new to humans and how to look
in a preventive way

we will see the universe we live in till the end of our lives
it will move like the constant movement of the forces of the big bang
with or without information in ourself
same for a nobelprice winner as a analphabetic or an animal that never got in contact with humans

this releases
the past
maybe a rational residue

and found out for yourself how it feels
and where it brings you

I read it all. Gast is a tragically lost genius, hopelessly tied to a future world of peace and understanding, yet forced to live in this one; a cold, grey environment, caustic to the soul, as well as the touch.

His degree of skill at visual artistry can often hamper his interpersonal communications; a mode lacking the same palette.

A*BEAM, caeks.

brings me back to an awarness of what i really am
in the universe
made out of stardust

what i really am in the big universe
someone who don't believe in power
i don't have it
and i won't live a life with the illusion i have

i know i'm here through this long journey

a*beam
the long journey calms the rational
like a gps
that was guided on half information to full information
in ways of speaking

what this does to an individual that was on it's life journey with half information
that was more going to the streets of questions
is as i think mixed with dissapiontment of life years not having that full information

the process will be then to take this into consideration and guide yourself out of the street of questions
and see the dissapiontment as a positive element that you are good aware that you give life/energy value
wich makes you saine

i think this because we or i still know that somewhere i automaticly will be
without knowing on the gps with half information
because i was used to

like habits

how long it will take for these habits of acting to be reduced or compleetly gone
is difficult to say
as i have to use alphabet during the day
then my though world
and then the basic body language wich is 60% of the communication

lifting myself up from that element
it's there
i do bodylanguage without knowing, most of the time
i use alphabet for everyday life
and will have to focus to universilize alphabet
before i get clichématic and take bad influences in my mouth
wich i rather not use
as i don't want to get into a word fight

feel good with yourself
life is universal
and has nothing to do with human information modern or old age

my attention did also go to an article of the scientific american
where a proffesor speaks about working to gether with other scientist
she speaks about how different the ways science study can be
and then brought together to compleet uncompleeted parts of reasearch

normally it should brough alot of good
this science and dna
and those kinda things

because of the failure of staying on track of these half gps
misformes this given element

they have to release themself
that they are not the power

there are billions of elements life forms outside our world earth
how does a person that believes it has power, think of a lifeform on a earth-like-planet?

everone has to take part of an international way of living
universally way no matter what the past was
what needs to be make better got's to made better in enviroment
apply the growth of science
and minimize politicians and banks who are part of the alphabetic world
like they gonna help me personally
with paying bills and buy'ing me a home

be and see things in proportions
politicians money banks are no gods
they speak alphabet
you can do that too

they have choosen to surve you
so surve
would i say

people are no toys in a labyrint game

don't get no power idea's you politicians

life is difficult enough by moments and more in difficult moments

where you gonna learn or live this universal / international life?

school
you can live it without alphabet
you need nothing to live universaly in that thought concept
take your time

going to stay awake for a few more hours
feeling good

bravo.