i have never been stupid enough to try to kill myself. well, driving drunk aside... just a bad idea. but seriously. i take a cab now.

The weekly attention seeking thread?

Well,

if I didn't have my dad, I wouldn't most likely have been here by now. Last year was really that bad.

But I promised myself, that in this year, such thoughts must vanish for good.

i wouldn never ever do that. i have seen what it does to a family last year. and that's another reason: i don't want them to lose someone that way again. and don't say it's selfish: a person with suicide thoughts has tunnel vision, which means he only sees death as the only solution, and not the other possible solutions. the only way to get him or her out of the idea of committing suicide is getting him out of the tunnel. and still, someone who really wants to die won't let anyone know: if someone is telling everyone he's going to end his life, that's more like a cry for attention. those attempts usually don't even succeed.

I don't think it's selfish either. But I do think it's stupid.

It's true that their main focus will be on whatever problem they have, and any solutions. However, they still have the brain capacity to consider the concequences of suicide. Whether it's deliberate or not, it's still selfish to not take others into accord in any given situation.

But then it'd also be selfish of them to want to keep you around purely for themselves when you don't necessarly want to live.

But again, I'm not for suicide. Tomorrow is always a new day, even if the days don't get better, I've learnt in life that good things come in all shapes and forms.

I work in the Emergency Room and work the Minneapolis/St. Paul suicide line.
If you want to talk about it, maybe we can (some day).

I found out that life is better when you live it, than moping about it. Last year I was depressed like hell, I just finally said fuck it I am not going to be depressed anymore.I actually was close to commiting suicide, but that's when I had an epiphany. And now I just need to see someone to help me channel whatever I have into something else.