Everything bothers me

Not a god damn thing.

I'm bothered to have been played, but I told it like it is, and consequently, my wife's boyfriend just gave me some weed. So you never know what will happen next...

No one's posting in my new movie thread!

I hate you all. :(

not so much. being at han's parents house instead of at home. It's a nice day though.. warm and rainy.

A room full of cheerleaders (or some sort of color guard team) and a few gay men that clearly want to be them, that's whats bothering me right now. They are loud and obnoxious and "like OMG" seems to be the major part of their vocabulary.

Why the fuck am I here?

One of them was sweet enough to offer me some cookie-cake. I politely declined. I think she was growing irritated w/ this group as well.

cheerleader cookie-cake?? that just rolls off the tongue!

peggy noonan: affected, phony cunt

hmmmm
not much....my dealer has DMT...so.......................................... .....................BYE!

It actually feels a bit better to have brought a massive downfall on myself than to have to blame it on somebody else. To rebuild from the bottom is somehow more valid if the bottom was gotten to by my own decisions. I actually was worried about being taken to jail for somebody else's lies tonight, and there was my ex who I completely fucked over ready to bail me out because I was there for her at the hospital when she half-faked suicide. So tired of drama in life, so why did I take the fucking manipulative, tell me what I wanted to hear, give me some free dope and then claim later I molested you routine?? As my lover who will probably never sleep with me again said, "You are not 20, why are you still living this type of life?" So well put. At least the cop was nice.

I can't wake up in the morning. It takes me an hour to get up and shower, but I still can't talk properly, my head is very heavy and my whole body feels like it's made of rubber.

can't sleep. :(

Close your eyes and laydown and imagine what you would like to be doing. I used to imagine what I was going to sew or create. Think about something you want to draw, before you know it you will be out.

I'm teetering over a black precipice.

below me lies the void.

sigh. already trying that. Usually I try not to make the effort to think creatively in bed though, as it really does keep me awake..

it is the gnawing pain that makes it hard. Don't really want to take more painkillers. they do nothing.

:confused:

? http://www.pglel.co.uk/rmbi2015/imag.../Parachute.jpg

I have a music test tomorrow in which if I don't pass I will apparently have to drop the course. My teacher says she wouldn't let that happen but I am still slightly worried over passing... naturally I am good at the subject but these questions are VERY specific. Like one of the questions was the Pink Floyd song Money and we had to tick boxes on what concepts are in it. I ticked Musique Conrete and Passacaglia and Passacaglia was wrong even though it WAS that. Confusing.

not sure i want to get out of bed and get to work.. Once i'm there i will be fine.. But it's cloudy outside and a nice day to just lay here a bit longer than i have time for.

I am keeping my mind on the vanilla soy misto that awaits me..

I need to make myself a cup of coffee before it gets to midnight otherwise I'll have to go without.

pEeOpleE tHaT wRitE lIkE tHiS!!!! oMgZzZzZ

i went to high school with too many of them ):