*down*

eh, shentov. good morning my man. what are you up to?

haha 19 pm here buddy. waiting for my bandmates to break in w/ some sticky icky. and you?

ha ha. just waking up. apparently it's ony 10am. trying to decide between bloody marys or buckwheat pancakes.

hm...

stick to the vodka. can't so wrong. only loaded as fuck + throwing up over people's morning coffee.

ha ha ha.

but im going out later. not sure i want to drink all day. still, the tangy tomato is so very tempting.

drink 'till 12 am then go to bed again. you hafta whol' sundae

hm yeah but buckwheat pancakes are so tasty, i might get up to make them... there are other pleasures beside being fucked up you know :D

ha ha

ps- ended up going to the gym instead. i need sleep now. :D

lol

How's it going?

I've been stoned everyday for a while, a year or so. I know someone who grows it and is always giving it to me (I know, I'm blessed. Or am I?). The thing is, I hate how much I love it. I love being high more than anything else, most times. And it's always there.

Productivity is way low, I can't get any job that requires a piss test, I could care less about social commitments, care less about anything really.

Why do drugs demand such a toll? Why do they even exist? God's a bitch.

evollove what's yr avatar from?

also 'see i think...i really do and if you don't believe...then do me a favour, go home tonight, take all yr tapes...cus you know all...enhanced yr life over the years...rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr'

I've been sober for a few days now, and hope to remain so for the rest of my life (gulp).

Here's a secret for everybody: it fucking rules. If your bored sober, then you're boring. There's so much to do that I couldn't do before (concentrate, etc.). I was worried music wouldn't sound as good, or that I wouldn't want to play my guitar at all. Didn't happen. Seriously, this was an epiphany: I don't need drugs to enjoy music. Blew my mind when I found that out.

I feel pretty good. Then I get depressed, but I love that, too. It's real. Everything's real.

Yes, I'm under a pink cloud now.

that's a bit much, going to rehab for smoking weed.

I know. I do more than that on occassion but the only drugs that I use on a daily basis are alcohol and marijuana.

I'm not going to treatment, though. And I'm not staying clean. Woo!