I'm starting to lose my motivation for basically anything. Why am I doing things? I tend to drift away and think about something irrelevant more often lately.

I listened to Cerberus Shoal.

not really, i use to work w/ her at my last job, and we bumped into each other at a bar one nite. now were banging. and it's daaaaaaamn good. man i love older women!

She doesn't make you listen to Billy Joel or Bob Seger while you do it though, does she?

I'm waiting for these guys to finish building the new coffee place where the starbucks once was so that I could interview for the job.

fruit.

Damn Adam you have too much spare time.

Hahaha. I wish.

I had just gotten off of work and typed all that shit in like 15 minutes. I type really fast. (insert joke) (even though I've been using computers for 13 years)

Haha, I get bored with typing after 5 sentences.

I'm with you on this one. Trying to manage two jobs and three contracts now, and struggling to get the bills paid living downtown and working for minimum.

Regarding strangeness, I smoked hash a month and a half ago and my ears started ringing. So I went to bed hoping it would go away, and I still have t now. It's completely bizarre, I still have it now. I called 8-1-1 finally after a while, and they were concerned it was an acoustic neuroma. I went to the Doctor, had an anxiety attack, and the doctor thought I might be schizophrenic, so I was sent to a psychiatrist. We talked, and he concluded I just have high sensitivity to marijuana, and that I should "breathe deeply" to get rid of the ringing, which certainly did nothing to help. Weed doesn't even cause tinnitus, it's odd.

If you take a close look, in the center of the page ia an announcement of their new location. Last night was great, they're closed on Mondays, it was so quiet, I actually got right to sleep for a change.

In the last Ken Bruen/Jason Starr novel the bad guy hides out basically in my apartment.

Today is fuckign strange. The boozehounds are already getting loaded at McSorley's when I walked past at 8:30 am. The cops are on the streets with their big machine guns and the motorcycle cops are dressed in black leather chaps and jack boots they look like nazis or leatherboys right out of Tom of Finland. It'll be ugly later today with all the drunks stumbling around vomiting at will.

took this little one from the cat and brought it somewhere safe. people looked at me funny when i was walking around on the street without a coat and with a mouse in my hand.

i named him edgar. he tried to crawl up my sleeve when i wanted to set him free.

you're a sweetie, but edgar is a disease vector. :(

http://www.pested.msu.edu/Resources/...8HouseMice.pdf

now you'll have to soak your hands in kerosene for 12 hours straight! :eek:

(ha ha, no-- but i hope you washed well)

of course i washed my hands. i always do when handling an animal i dont know...

still, you're brave. i wouldn't touch it with my bare hands. he's cute and all but i'd get the willies in a huge way.

haha i'm not really scared of getting sick from animals. been 'saving' young birds for as long as i can remember (of course, it never works to take are of a baby bird who fell out of the nest, definitely not when you're six years old)

once i found a baby bat, it had fallen down and wasn't strong enough to climb back up. i rubbed my hands with lavender to mask the human smell, picked it up and fed it some milk with a q-tip. then we put it back at the wall and it climbed right back up :P

The worst part about being unemployed is how if an employer doesn't chose to hire you, they don't bother to recognize your existence enough to inform you.

R-E-S-P-E-C-T

i had a gossip girl party last night at my place.

Here we go again...

I tried to sleep without smoking any pot mon/tue/wed and it was horrifying. My restless leg syndrome nearly drove me to suicide when I was a youth, but since I was smoking I have practically forgotten how severely disabling it can be sometimes..

No sleep to speak of those three days.. just mind destroying awakeness with rhythmic pulsations running down my legs uncontrollably causing them to twist and turn and twitch until sunrise.. the worst is the bits of teasing sleep with no REM that I managed to get. It is bizarre for me to live without dreaming at night let alone not sleeping!

needless to say I came to my senses on Thursday night and smoked some fucking herb.. slept like a baby with marvelously vivid dreams :)