alteredcourse |
11.30.2009 01:01 AM |
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Originally Posted by artsygrrl
Everyone here has issues of one sort or another. I'm talking about mental problems.
When someone has a "meltdown" on the board they know they're taking a big risk. I see these as:
1. Desperate, genuine calls for help/advise/support...whatever the risk. Or...
2. Someone who feels the need to generate attention because he/she feels ignored/left out/not popular, or just lonely.
So, since I don't know for sure, I usually take these meltdowns seriously. Better safe than sorry. I'm sure some ppl have me pegged as a sucker. But fuck them, who cares?
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I respect this very much, because I cant be that anymore. I used to. I used to wave down ambulances for junkies puking blood in the street while everyone walked on, I used to be on the phone all night with real-life friends who felt like the last grain of sand was spiraling through the connecting tube of their hourglass. But....I got weary of it. I encountered too many people who ended up just being.......flaky. I cant be any more than vague about what situations I fell into, but they hurt me.
Just the fact that people can be so fickle about life in that way, using things like suicide attempts as obvious reasons for attention...it's a hard one for me. Even if someone seems to be just flailing around and couldnt pull a suicide off, well so they feel hurt enough to really need someone, I can still empathize with that. But when it happens over, and over, and over, and over....like a bad habit, and eventually starts to feel like you are being used not for any benefit at all. I want to be used for good or for help, not for the indulgence of an attention habit.
But I cant anymore. It disturbs me so much that people are really that fucked to the point where they arent really going to kill themselves, but will use it for attention.
I cant handle it. Real trauma, yes. The general nihilistic void of most young people now, no.
Note: this has nothing to do with anything on this board.
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