Not on purpose!

seriously lol'd

????

there is so much bothering me at the moment.

Start at the beginning. We'll sort each one out in turn.

true but you lost me there

nothing a hard cock couldn't fix, right?

sadly, not even that. its that bad.

hows your music coming Knox?

I thought you were being serious, my fault entirely

I think I need a new keyboard. And I need to be less nervous about gigs.

i might just need to get ridiculously drunk and cry? i dont know these things.

just let amerikan know, if you need a cock to cry on

i'm over-anxious as hell. it's midterm week and i have my one and only midterm on friday. ugh. i really don't want to wait that long. :7(

Not so bothered anymore. I got the job. Now I just need to get my documents in order and get in contact with a Korean school.

Nice going, pbrads.

cannot sleep. don't want to. too much on my mind. parents coming to town tomorrow. lee and leah (and family) performance sunday. aunt getting a surgery appointment friday. cousin mysteriously ill. on top of that, i am afraid i was a snob to the librarian when i was going over my search with her because i said that one of the results was a big deal at my elite college. it's ok. she was like, well, shucks, as if she didn't care and i shouldn't be dropping names at the library anyway. but this was just the icing on the cake. weird day. mom and dad saw the jeff bridges movie. i saw it months ago. weird that we both saw it. it is like a coincidence that suggests big things. well, just that a lot of people between our demographic profiles have seen it. crazy heart. crazy fart. sounds better than it looks. it's not as bad as it looks. lol. i feel like atsonicpark or whoever writes those paragraph-size posts. hers are better. his? dunno.

then just detach like a flower that lost the trust in its very own dung heap and had to force fluttering flutterbys out of its iris'. Nobody's going to show up and explain to you the meaning of each crater on your face, and there will never be a real life jeff bridges that you can just hang your cap on and nod to in the shadows. That's a huge point in life I think, and FUCK YOU, and that's also a huge point in life too. Nobody does this anymore. Drag a filet mignon across the librarian's desk and say, with your voice soft enough to elicit new blooms of FUCK YOU pre-spring flowers,
your gift is raped
soon you'll be dead.
soon
so soon
the embers you dismissed; they'll all come back in a fragrant bouquet.
Now how long until you peak 'round that
impossible elbow?

I'm bothered that it has taken kloriel so long to post.

double you tee eff

people that allow themselves to be hung up on the dead will destroy themselves. you are not dead. and you should not be anywhere near me.

I would be a terrible mad scientist if I was bothered by a little residual haunting.

that said, there are a lot of batteries around the house if you feel the need to draw upon them for a full manifestation.

fuck the dead. I'm hung up on doom.

i feel better. fuck you? fuck racism. fuck you? i don't even know you. but fuck you is ambiguous. fuck you. jeff bridges is a painter. my friend, fuck you, is a painter. chew on that. how's your q/ki?

Roil In The Frosty Atmosphere

phoenix read my cards. I got the hanged man.

there is a yoke of doom around my neck.

fuck me.

my qi has been slowly seeping into the vacuum of space.

blown away like the martian atmosphere.

so annoyed with trying to record.

rofl

GUY

live's been destroyed. but you know that. I saw someone I call them Dagish;
he's on FINAL FUCKING BREATHS
and he doesn't care because he caught something at the last final fucking moment that just happened to -
beyond all comprehension scream -
that's it, there's nothing else. You fucking scream & you fucking die.
two people on earth can stand aside from this and I'm certainly not one of them. You want to find some fucking SOURCE of conflict;
woe be the face of lovecraft while sipping ale with aslan.

dumb mother fuckers.

DENZEL WASHINGTON
&
TIM ROTH


thus the female planet
do you like chain saw or hatchet?

i was quite fond of you all.
now it is all flames
now it is all running
broken

Har Har Har Har Har

rotttteeeennnn

i dunno. the day of pushes, bushes and keys has little to do with metal anymore. these days i want to see run-dmc receive a lifetime achievement award.

i might take my parents to a downtown alternative theater when they come to town. i hope they're game. i could see them walking out. oh, guff. whatever. my cousin is feeling better and we are inching towards...towards truth...lee on the main gossip page.

this fucking essay. i seriously can't wait to be on break next week.

My internal conflict with society.

You are still thinking about a reading from a year and a half ago?! It all changes so much, you shouldn't dwell. Want me to do you again? :D I will LOL if it comes up though so maybe I shouldnt.. I was actually thinking of finding you a nice deck for yr birthday anyway.. I've been playing far too much with my faeries of late..

not much is bothering me right now.

Today was a little craptastic, people calling in sick to work, busy day, stuff not working.. but the people who were there, were awesome, so it could have been worse. I also woke up this morning.. meaning, I slept.

+I'm home now and have mylaptop back. Need to spend 2893704 hours putting everything back on it, but still.

essays are boring. you should post the topic and let the forum contribute for you.

Getting the entire cast, and crew together for my next film is such a pain in the ass. No one's schedule matches up as well as I'd like - not even the time that we can use the shooting location. I'm stressing out. Especially since I'm just a lazy, stoner fuck to begin with.

yes DO(om) me again!

ps: of course I am. you know I can't forget shit like that.

Yesterday was great, this morning I'm called a liar and a pessimist before I even have a chance to fully wake up.

sounds fun.



impressive.