this is the first period of my life in ages, since i thought santa claus was real and i had an invisible friend, i haven't wanted to fucking end it all and my family just.. make me want a goddamn drink and pills. i just want to be fucking happy. why is that so much.

the FDA needs to shut the f-up. i can eat vics & percs like candy and i need tylenol pm type stuff to fall asleep. time to stop worrying about pain killers, esp over the counter meds, and start feeding some starving kids or something.

time to drink myself to death

Because, I've said it a thousand times, your parents are fucking douchebags.

Davenotdead, you can be my notdeaddave :p

This picture makes me feel kinda funny

I'm high on life!

after a few days, I usually start to build up a tolerance and have to switch to something else though.

I think I'll try smoking asbestos soon.

It's pretty much the other way around and you and I both know that. You're one of the kindest most caring people I've ever met in my life and you actually give a shit about the people in your life unlike those motherfuckers. Don't believe what they say. I don't care if I die because of the lack of air getting to my lungs to tell you that you are not what they say, as long as you hear it. I know it's hard but keep your head up kiddo, k? You know I love you

Maybe next time I won't get drunk
Maybe next time I won't be an embarrassment
Maybe next time I won't fall asleep clutching a loaded gun

they are not worried abuot the dopers. there is evidence that these things cause ill liver disease.
replacing a liver is a biatch unless yr rich

asbestos is overrated. so is snorting lead paint.

but, nutmeg is legal in every state and almost every country and has no age limit. It gives you a sort of pot-alcohol-lsd experience. try two tablespoons or one nut first. then after a couple times try three tablespoons or two nuts. You can buy it in any grocery store. it usually takes about 4-10 hours to fully kick in. if you are using ground nutmeg (remember: the darker the color the more potent the nutmeg try to get the darkest) then put nutmeg in a mesuring glass dump some nutmeg in your mouth then swallow with water and repeat until all the nutmeg is gone. if you buy nuts then simply pop them in your mouth and eat them. if ground nutmeg doesn't work then simply up the dosage or switch to the nuts. you will feel stoned, drunk, you will feel very strong euphoria, and you will have mild to moderate hallucinations. It will last 26-72 hours. the side effects are nausea, drymouth, headache, vomiting, and mild constipation. If you want to read peoples nutmeg experiences then use this erowid experience link: http://www.erowid.org/experiences/subs/exp_Nutmeg.shtml

Merry-a-trip to you my friends.

I can see clearly through the haze of the bottle
I can see every minute detail
I can see my strengths
I can see my weaknesses
I can see my successes
I can see my failures

I can feel as if everything is perfect
And I can feel as if nothing has ever gone right
I can be the life of the party
And I can be the pathetic drunk, sobbing in the corner
I can make people long to be near me
And I can make

and DEATH.

nutmeg overdoses will shut down the nervous system.

that is how convicts get high in prison and shit.

just beat yrself over the head with a brick.

pffft. well those mixed w/gallons of vodka is prob rottn my liver good, eh? good thing im undead and shit.

all i get is that i'm just silly, i make up excuses, UGH UGH UGH. today i got i don't care about anyone else. mom has rheumatory arthritis, she found out this week, and got loaded up with prescriptions, the first thing i told her was to write down all her doses and stuff so i know what she's taking if she ever needs help. i care. and you, i love you. i mean it, i want to fly the fuck out and come get you and max out every penny to get this heart of yours looked at.

sssshhhh. i need more dead people to play with man.

this shit be heavy.

please take care of yrselves everyone.

i'll try to kill her with my dick next time

You'll be out soon, play it safe tomorrow. Two weeks and you won't hear shit of that nature. Don't worry about my heart, I'm fine, I'm strong and I can make it but you need to make sure to keep out of that shit they spill out of their mouths. You have my number if it becomes unbearable.

Death by dick. Sounds like a porno film.

i'm not going to lie.