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Personally, I like to be abused... there's a time and a place for it though.
I think that discussion was when I was particularly bitter about being cheated on by every girl I've been with, especially the last girl, I spent 7 years with her, gave her more than anyone else ever has, and she cheated on me with a guy who is a shithead to her, because she said I was too good for her, and she just generally treated guys who treated her like garbage, better than me. The only way to get her to respect me was to be an asshole to her, which is totally not who I am. The best thing I did was to stop talking to her. But she owes me $200 (she actually owes me a couple thousand but we're settling at $200) so I check in with her sometimes to see if she has been able to pay me yet. Of course, she made me feel like shit our entire relationship because I never went to college. She comes from the richest family in town, went to a nice ass school, and is thousands in credit card debt. So, I mean, I "win", but what kind of victory is it?
Either way, I'm sure I was bitter for a while, but I'm with a totally sweet girl now who sees me for who I really am, respects my honest, integrity, creativity, and success. We love each other. She sometimes does get into these moods where she feels like I'm too good for her, but I have to keep reminding her that I'm no better than anyone else. She's really changed who I am as a person -- for the better. She makes me so happy. It seems like everything started going good once I got with her... my movies started being accepted to festivals, people started being interested in my music again. She has helped me realize the beauty of flowers. She's an angel.
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