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happiness is very important, but constant happiness is impossible. i have moments of happiness every day, but i couldn't get shit done if i was always "happy". then again working out in the morning makes me ooze endorphins for a good chunk of the day. but is that "happiness"? not sure. without a measure of pain and suffering nothing would ever get done though. although zen people tend to think of this differently-- and think of happiness differently as well.

satisfaction would be a more measurable goal for me-- with your life, family, friends, work, etc-- in that sense, i'm very satisfied with some things (personal) and very unsatisfied with others (work). that is good, because i am in a middle of a lot of changes-- without dissatisfaction one would be stuck forever in a rut-- but then it wouldn't be painful, would it? hm... i've never been satisified with everything, so i wouldn't know. but it's nice to dream.

so... tough question. "am i happy." yes, i am not miserable. but i have my share of sorrows, frustrations and worries... i don't know if i could put a reductive number to all of this complexity. ask me again next year.