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Originally Posted by nokittymagic
thanks, i do like this site here....
but if i wanna do that to myself, the fact that my family'll be confused & sad probably won't mean anything to me. & i dont have friends, let alone close ones..... and i dont like myself & i read Sotos all the time and its fucked up.
yep
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A lesson I'll continue to keep on keepin' to learn the hard way is this...and I KNOW it's not anything new to you:
Just because things suck right now, does not mean that they will later. And of course, if you decide to kill yourself none of it will likely matter either way...but like I said earlier, death is a comin' regardless. You might as well stick things out....
Shit can, and does get interesting. Then it gets bad again, then awesome, then terrible...it's a never ending process.
Whenever I think of suicide, I just remember that Kurt C. guy and how he never got to hear Sonic Youth's Nurse....he really missed out. It's always been these little things, to me, that make life so worth living. That and all the endless possibilities...I don't want kids, but maybe one day I will. I don't believe in UFO's, but maybe some crazy ass shit will happen tomorrow that blows my mind....this world, this universe is a VERY supernatural place within itself, and even when things suck I remind myself as to how miraculous it is that I've even been given this chance at life to begin with. I don't think I'm here for any greater purpose or any of that shit....but that's despite the point....I'm here, I will die, I might as well experience as much as I can while I can before I drift into that big unknown that I (most likely) will have no sense of self-awareness in.
Being alone isn't such a bad thing IF it can be embraced and used to one's advantage. + I know all to well feeling lonely isn't much fun at all, but it can be overcame. Being alone, and feeling lonely are two very different things. If yr stuck in some routine that's dragging you down....change it!
KEEP THE FUCK ON! FOR REAL!