Ok Istarted with weed. I was about 15. Then acid, speed, anything I could get pretty much. I always promised myself I would not take anything addictive. Then came xanax and tar opium after abou5 years of a very serious xanax run I'd do coke sometimes, ecstacy, snorted heroin, drink bottles of liquid opium. Then I found pain pills and aderall. The perfect cocktail for me would be a bar of. Xanax 10 mg percocet and an aderall better than sex.Eventualy 10 years of this and I would basically take any pill I could find in very large doses. I would take methadone. I tried crack. I once took a xanax I found on the floor of a walgreens. But as addicted as I was and still am I never sold shit for drugs or let it interfere with my responsibilities. I would just endure withdrawals. I am a functional addict. I am slowly changing. I got my doc to put me on kolonipin so I can come off of the xanax. I only get painkillers and speed once a month. Trying to stop altogether. I drink a lot more though when I am sober which is probably not good. It's fun when your on em but you can never catch that dragon and I really envy people who don,t need something to make em happy. Now I can never go back. My chemical makeup has changed. So my advice is just say no or when your 33 you'll just remember a big blur.
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