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I cannot afford it. I want to soooooo bad, but I cannot just leave everything and go to some fancy rehab across the country for 6 months like on the addiction shows it is just not that simple. I DO NEED HELP! Because everyone depends on me I cannot leave them what would they do?
If I get insurance it takes half of my pay for the month. if I go into out patient treatment it averages $800 to start and then around $500 a month. I cannot go cold turkey cause i always end up giving in or just drinking myself to the point of puking. Thats what i am trying now and i have never drank so much in my life I used to hate alcohal.
I want to be normal SO BAD. I am so jealous of ppl who are naturally happy. I don't know what that means I don't want to be who I am.
You are really sweet for being concerned it made me cry.
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