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I am good to my friends and family, and there's nothing I really "want"; I am always giving away everything, since I don't really like any of the stuff I have... I just have this overall feeling of a severe depression in my life. I would try to make a resolution "get over my depression", but how does one do that exactly? Nothing really makes me happy anymore. It's been like that for a long time now. I guess one of the things that's always made me happy is to give people stuff, to show people new bands and movies and stuff, and to give them gifts and cash and whatnot. I have always liked making others happy. So I'll probably just focus on that, just do more stuff for other people. People close to me tell me I need to start being more selfish, start doing more things for myself, but that's just not who I am. Regardless, something needs to change. I am depressed all the time. I don't know what I'm working for anymore, exactly. Sometimes I sleep all day, and when I wake up I take sleeping pills and sleep some more. It's the only escape I have from reality. I know things won't always be like this. I'm just in a really unhappy place right now.
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