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I was the kind of person who was cool with everyone and hung out with whomever regardless of what crowd they were from.

Childhood years-

Grew up in Catholic school. Starting with my preschool. It wasn't because my parents were religious, it was because they felt it would give me a better education.

I went to the same school from 1st to 8th grade. Our class had thirty people in it, so we all knew each other really well. I never really understood how cool it was to have such a small group of classmates until I went to high school. During my jr high years, I played basketball on the school team.

I started getting into trouble kind of early. No one expected it from me, everyone knew me as kind of innocent. At 11 I was forging checks, and at 13 I had been arrested for shoplifting. The shoplifting arrest was the worst because it was on a day that I had pretended to be sick, so I got to stay home. Only to later get arrested. I had successfully shoplifted five times before, so I guess they were on to me. I had gotten so good at lifting that I even did it while my parents were shopping in the store. It's lame as fuck as to what I was stealing, but it was pc games.

Nothing too interesting happened, until the summer between 8th and 9th grade. The transition from middle to high school. I lost my virginity, shortly after turning 14. and it was to two girls, but not at the same time.

In sixth grade this girl that liked me, moved away to arizona. Her best friend still went to my school and in 8th grade she wanted to go out with me, but we never did until that summer because she was dating my best friend, and I didn't want to go behind my friend's back. We all know how those relationships end when school's out. So she was single, and the girl that moved away to arizona was back in town for a photo shoot. The girl from arizona was staying at the house of her old best friend, so they called me, and invited me over. Both girls were into me, I was into them, more so the best friend than the one from arizona, and no adult supervision, leads to losing my virginity. We honestly had really no clue what the fuck we were doing, but I still had enough sense then to know to use a condom.

During my high school years, I went to three different high schools.

My freshman year high school was some prestigious Catholic high school that you had to apply to get into, and have good grades. I was accepted and started attending. During this time, my parents started going through their divorce. I began experimenting with alcohol, and my grades had began to slip. My dad left the house, due to a restraining order, and being arrested for domestic violence and death threats.

My mom worked a lot, so I was left alone for much of the summer. Which lead to exploration of the internet, back then it was all about 56k modems and dial up. Internet Explored 4.0. That summer, visitation rights were set for my dad, and I switched schools. I would have been put on academic probation at my high school, and my mom could not afford the 7k a year to send me there, so it was off to public school.

It was my first year at public school, and having gone to catholic school there were all these horror stories about violence, gangs, and drugs, etc.

In retrospect, there was way more fights and drugs at the private high school I went to freshman year, than I had seen at any public high school. Also its kind of important to note that, the public schools I went to were in good neighborhoods, so I didn't get the gritty public school experience.

Sophomore year. This is really the year that set up my later years. I was at a new school, I didn't have my friends from middle school like I did at my private high school. What I did have was one of my longtime friends, that I met in preschool who went there. Through that route, I was able to make friends pretty quickly. So I wasn't a loner really ever, I started meeting people at orientation, before school even started.

My grades were horrible this year. 1.8 gpa first semester, 1.0 gpa second semester. I had major attendance problems, and this is where I first found drugs. I smoked weed for the first time, smoked cigs for the first time, found out the hard way about not taking too many prescription pills. Got drunk at school a lot. It was basically a party for me. Aside from that, nothing notable occured. Until the end of the year.

I found out I was moving once again and changing schools. I left as soon as my last final had been completed. I was now two hours away, in a town where I knew absolutely no one, and had to start over again. I took summer school, more to meet friends, than because I needed to.

The plan was successful, I met a few people that I could hang out with during the school year. One person whom would become an important part of my life at the time. My first semester, my grades were good, and I just met people. Nothing too crazy, aside from drinking alcohol during a halloween night with new found friends. Second semester was a lot more significant.

Prom was coming up and I was not expecting to go since I didn't really get to know any of the girls at my school. One of the guys I met during summer school and hung out with, had a sister. I kind of knew she liked me, but never really thought about getting with her. Her brothers hooks me up as her prom date.

I went over to his house to play him in basketball, not really for the basketball but for his sister. She'd kiss me and we'd make out during these days, and her brother asked us if we were going out, I said no, and for the next two weeks, she was stand offish. I figured out, that she wanted me to say yes. A couple weeks later, she started being affectionate again, and her brother asked the same question, I said nothing, waiting for her to answer. She said nothing, we looked at each other, and she said whatever you say. So I said that we were.

Things moved fast, we went to prom, a fight broke out in our limo, it upset my girlfriend, she started to cry, so when I dropped her off, I told her I loved her for the first time. She had said it to me before, but I could never say it back until that night.

My dad completely disappeared from my life and has not been back, its been almost seven years that I haven't spoke to him. Two months after our relationship, me and my girlfriend got engaged. This would be the person I refer to as my ex-fiance, and yes I know now how getting engaged at 16 was a fucking stupid idea. At that age, we thought we knew it all, and everyone else was wrong. Having said that, the negativity around us, from our friends and families was one of the biggest factors in breaking us up. So I would like to think, it was a relationship that would have lasted, if it had ocurred at a later point in our lives. After we were legal, and free to do what we wanted.

Senior year was a lot more unstable for me, due to the breakup and other things. To make things worse, I had to see my ex-fiance the whole year in my classes. At first we couldn't even talk to each other, she wanted to be friends, but I kind of told her to fuck off because I was upset that things didn't work out. I wrote her an apology note, and we kind of made up, but things could never be the same between us. It was more than awkward at all times.

I started my heavy drug use period. I also had major attendance problems. The only reason I would go to school would be to do drugs. The first time I did ecstasy wasn't at a rave, it was during my high school economics class. The second time I did e was also during school. My senior ball date stood me up, so I went alone, only to be spend that night with my ex fiance. I left with her after, and it was great, it felt like we were together again, only she had a boyfriend who was too old to come to senior ball, so after that it was awkward.

She showed me that she had kept the poems I wrote her and stuff, and I still have no idea why, unless she still cared about what we had, or it was to make me jealous. Nothing else really happened, I graduated in 2001 with a 1.8 gpa.

Since then I went to community college, transferred to a respected university, and got my BS degree in Business Administration in 2005.