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-half of my friends are ignorant rich pricks who will never... ugh i dont even want to go there. i dont blame them. its not their fault...
-i recently ran into my dear from middle school. i moved out of town and didnt see her for 5 years and a half. we stopped talking a year after i moved. while chatting with her, i realized all of the girls ive dated have been similar to her in one way or another. i wonder if its because i still like her or because i just like certain kind of women.
-my huge birthday party is coming up on the 11th of august. i dont think i ever wanted a huge bash... and i feel like im doing it to please others. i feel like i have a "title" to keep up with. so much stress. this might be my last event for a while... its certainly lost all of its fun (to me). i mean, the money is great and it makes me feel really good when everyone else is having fun... but i dont know. i think im over it. i just want to have a quiet dinner with my parents and my girl and 3-4 friends. its a little too late to stop though. i kinda feel like Guido in 8 1/2. Except im not making a movie, im organizing an event... and im very confused. its a little too late to cancel... but then again i think of the advice the writer gives guido... "It's better to destroy than create what's unnecessary"
-confusion confusion confusion
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