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Having a difficult time believing the dude's gone. Of course I accept it, shit just seems unreal in a way. Serves as a reminder, to me personally, that it's important to consider the things we say to others. Probably, in some sense, especially those we just know over the internet. Easy to make light of the situation of someone else when the reality is ya really have no idea what they deal with on a day to day basis. Thinking back on the countless hours I've spent here in the past, reconsidering some of the conversations I've had and some of my old bullshit aimed strictly at getting reactions and emotion out of others (in all fairness I was quite literally a kid when I started posting here. And like some of you others, remember the old board quite well). Addiction is serious (something I know all to well via my own person and shit I've dealt with, as well as close friends). Almost embarrassing the light I used to make of it. Same goes for suicide and all sorts of other shit. Life's fucking hard. Life's fucking chaotic. Some might argue, and I might agree, that at times life should be both...however, when someone is dealing with something it's never really fair to try and worsen though poking fun or just being a total bitter asshole toward, whatever it is they are dealing with. The golden rule and all that shit.
And as far as Adam, specifically...my thoughts are lingering toward some of the things others here have said. There are those who demonstrate lots of in the way of creative potential, but everyone sorta knows they will go on to do little with it. This is OK. That said, I truly believe...due to this urge he had to just do things, despite the size of budget, his ability to just have an idea and just get it out there in some tangible way...I always thought, and currently feel I know, he could have went some serious places. I'm thankful for all the material, music, art, film...he does have out there. Very prolific. I don't think he's anyone that's going to be forgotten soon. It's sad when any one goes, I've always felt especially bad for the artists though. Especially those that just never really seemed to stop creating.
But anyway, yeah. I've never been the best w/ words or anything. Shits just weird.
Haven't ranted on here in a while ha. Old school swa(y)
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