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I wish I could stop time and fall asleep for 7 years
So I could wake well-rested and confident
Sure of the flawed and disgustingly fake personality I possess
With love for the perfect face that makes me vomit at its reflection
I put stock in you Buddha
And I curse the catholic church
You say I will be
Reborn.
Pure.
Beautiful.
Naive.
I so dearly wish for coma.
Bring rot to this worthless sack of flesh.
Rest me on a hospital bed
Hooked with respirators
A true pergatory on earth
So I may do, in peace, what I plan to do for the rest of my life:
Decay. Sleep. Wither.
But above all..
Nothing.
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I wrote it last night inbetween crying like a little girl and trying to go to sleep.
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