[Norma J]

I hate taking all that shit, hence I don't. But whilst growing up I was a shit nervous dude. I could barely talk to a stranger if asked a question and I'd get all anxious in public and it would not be an overally pleasant experience. Not like I stayed at home and never left the house, not necessarly, I just didn't like crowds. But then I still don't like crowds and I get alittle anxious but nowhere near like I used to. Never took meds, I'd hate to rely on a stabiliser to get me through and be in a permanent haze. I got on anti-depressants once and went off them after a few days because I felt like a goon taking them. Ever since, I've gotten better with controlling my emotions. I think I needed to realise that only I can help myself.

Saying all this shit though, I finally got some pain killers the other day for my back which I am always in pain with. I don't even like taking these that often, I hate relying on anything. But they also make me a better communicater and more care free in a pleasant way.