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sorry but my best friend is busy so i need to let something off my chest.
last wednesday my band had an out of town gig that was really important for us. the night before our drummer was sick. we told her to rest and to skip work the next day. she went to work but informed us that she will not be coming to the show later that day. i told her that if she can work she can play. we argued and eventually she gave in. later that day she called to say that she does not feel well enough to play, but refused to take any pills to help her.
we argued and i lost my temper and reallly let her have it. she eventually came to the gig, cried the whole way, felt better played a great set cried the whole way back.
i called her today to tell her that no matter who was right and who was wrong in the argument i still had no right to talk to her in that way and offered my depest apologies (i have started to try to deal with my anger problems)
she informed me that as of now she does not want to play with us anymore and wnats to have nothing to do with me.
i asked her if she could explain
she said in a bitchy tone of voice "whats not to understand?"
one could arrive to the conclusion from that conversation that she does not want to be in the band anymore and wants nothing to do with me. i was hearbroken and told her that, she called me dramatic.
this is someone who has been extremely close to me for many years. she was my first real love and i hers. after we broke up i tried my hardest to be strang and maintain a working relationship with her in addition try to stay in eachothers lives, because we were, at least during the time of our relationship, best friends.
i was devastated and skipped my last class to work out and swim so i could blow off some steam.
she tried calling me but i didnt answer. she called a few minutes ago and we taklked.
she said that there is nothing to talk about because we made her play when she doesnt want to, and a band is made up of four indivisuals, and no decisions should be made as a band, rather and indivisuals.
i told her that i disagree, and that i would like for all four band members should meet so we can make some kind of status quo about the level of commitmanship each memeber is obligated to. she says no way, because if we cant agree that if someone has a cold or doesnt feel like playing then the others need to respect that, there is nothing to talk about...
she said someore things about us that where hurtful and i am sitting at home in my filthy apartment heartbroken and devastated.
sorry for the bitching but i needed to write this down...
anyhoo
anybody want to start a band?
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