It's possible...
Is anyone in your family bipolar?
I'm sorry you're having a tough time Lilly, and I hope things get better for you
My uncle had it pretty damn bad, when he switched medication they put him in the hospital so he doesn't go crazy. He's bipolar and something else though. A doctor told my grand parents that he's mentally handicapped when he was young (he's just slow though)
If anything I'm probably depressed, or so everyone tells me.