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Originally Posted by batreleaser
i was addicted to oxycontin and heroin for about 2 years. been clean for a year in a week. i originally went stone sober for 8 months, no drinking, no grass, nothing. in that time i got my life back on track. slowly but surely i felt comfortorable having a drink again, and weed is actually coming back to me, but i might get a prescription for it for anxiety (i got anxiety major, but i hate benzodiazipines, weed is the only thing that workls for me). bottom line, i shouldnt be doing anything, but im doing really good now, i feel content. anyone who needs to quit something, know this: it SUCKS getting clean. you most likely have fucked up the relationships with your straight friends, and your dope buds will drop you because you cant party anymore. you will feel extremly akward, and the months that follow the initial sickness are waaaaay worse than the physical symptoms. diraehha and a fever and nausea are not nearly as bad as neverending boredom, depression, anxiety, and a feeling of empitiness thats extremly hard to shake. but, it goes away, and eventually the friends will come back, the ones that matter anyways, and you will feel amazing. so, yheah, im a drug addict, but, you gotta deal with it, right?
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i hear you on that one, i'm quite afraid from what i know about
the time after...
how did you resist the
urge to fix
just once to get rid of the "neverending boredom, depression, anxiety, and a feeling of empitiness thats extremly hard to shake"...
'cause if I couldn't resist... this might destroy what I've built until that frightening moment...
that thoughts in my head now, and I've only been off heroin for a month. not entirely off opiates, just off heroin, and depression killing me even now; I don't even imagine what I should expect after finally nullify (sp?) my MST dose.
I've also bee addicted for two years (shooting heroin, no oxys available in Eastern EU, though i'd like to snort one of those fuckers for 'knowledge purposes only' if you get the picture...).
were you and IVer, or a snort/smoke addict?