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Originally Posted by Massenvernichtungswaffen

I believe personally that Sonic Youth have taught me that a life fragile disoriented a dissonant can be healed throught the observation of 4 normal people with personal histories not so disclosed, that could get together and maybe unknowingly lead those who take little msgs too far, while not meaning so and just maybe just experimenting with theory alot.
cuz there is a lot of theory to their ways
the tunings
why the notes are dissonant and why when the guitar is so fucked out of reality it can be played beautifully
they taught me that w/ out knowing it.
I'm actually just bipolar/ schizo-affective and just really learned this after doing something desperate to assure that strangers wouldn't take earnest efforts of human contact as being something

.. fake.

Because I am not.

if you don't know why i wrote this.
check some threads... the sweater could have unnecessary holes
and is not warming me.
I need this light in chaos

i also need all music and art to influence my fragile mind.

but i was greatly offended and went into a serious existential moment.
because I was sincere
and was met with great opposition.

I am truly sorry.

I wish everyone very well.

will take lil blue pil
stop almost having an angina.
sleep
wake
be normal again cuz that's all it takes.
and realise I did a good job in handling considering the gravity.
I went to a big city hospital and networked myself
it worked
i'll live
and i'll be terribly embarassed about it the rest of my life.
lol
i'll be ok.
thanks to some. thanks to all.
and thanks to DEMONRAIL FOR INDIRECTLY CAUSING ME TO SAVE MY OWN LIFE

such is the enigmatic existence of one who sees too much and can't distinguish what is a good lead from a bad one.
and be their healing.

tl;dr