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Originally Posted by Everyneurotic
i know this section has becomed something like bitch-a-plus but i think it's good for people to feel this confidence to share their stuff here with us. well, now it's my turn.
i've had a lot of crazy stuff happen to me since ending college this past december, crazy stuff, involving people who i trusted and turned out to be phonies, people who i have feelings for, she (more like "they"...i'm not sure if this could have happened to someone else with more than one person) has feelings for me but it's all about putting walls after walls and distancing from one another to doubt and shit like that. every week has been a surprise. now i have another one and this one is heavy.
my ex-girlfriend, who i broke up with something like 5 years ago in bitter and hateful terms, regained contact with me something like a year and a half ago, we started as friends and missed her as such and decided to speak to her again, we hung out for a little while then we broke contact again. last week, i spoke to her on msn and started to talk about her feeling crappy and me telling her how it felt when i found out she was cheating on me (and i mean, literally, i caught her kissing some other guy) and stuff. anyway, i told her to call me anytime if she felt bad or anything, so she called me, she was very upbeat on the phone so i thought she just wanted to catch up; but when she picked me up, she was crying, she told me about her problems and said she had never told anyone about her. she told me her sister (who i got to know when we were dating and a very good person) had a disease which might lead her to cancer and, after the first treatment, rejected anymore help; her mom is going thru hell with her, her father wants to leave home and she has some major problems with her boyfriend (the guy she cheated on me with). i felt really bad because first of all, i consider her a friend, and second of all, i can't forget the feelings i had for her, i don't love her like i did back then but i still care for her. all i did was stay there, hold her hand, hug her and be there for her, i know she's a smart girl and she will know what to do. but i still feel worried about her, and needed to tell it to someone.
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