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Originally Posted by floatingslowly
you should lay off The Smiths for a couple weeks.
try something violent instead.
that always seems to help me.
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I don't EVER listen to the Smiths. I just need to keep my shit together I suppose, but its hard to let shit out sometimes, I don't feel I can talk about these things with other people sometimes because I don't want to affect the way the see me after the fact.. I can't talk to my priest about this, I'm the sunday school teacher. I can't talk to my church folk about this, they might think I'm all doom and gloom.. I can't talk to my friends about this, they are all too too busy with all the shit they have going on that I would not want to spoil the rare opportunities we have together..I can't talk to my sister who I live alone with, because she probably already noticed and is not exactly a therapist.. I don't trust therapists, they do not understand my situation, they would dismiss my whole existence as fantasy, the God I live for as an illusory dream and even if I found, say an Orthodox Christian one who does understand, I have no $$$ for that shit.. essentially in this mess of my own mind I have no one. so I bring it to you all, who have a semblance of anonymity which is comforting in and of itself.. thank you all for that in advance
divided right in two..