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Compared to everyone I know in real life.. family, friends, coworkers, enemies.. I am rich. I don't know about "filthy". But let me put it like this: The richer I've become, the more I realize I don't want anything that I have. Really, I don't want anything, period, and I'm constantly selling/getting rid of shit. I could quit my job at this very moment but I just don't. I dunno what compels me to keep going on. Granted, I'm not FILTHY rich, but I am well-off enough at this point where I could pretty easily not work for the next 2 years and still be able to pay for everything with no problem. I went through a time for a year where I didn't work at all, and that was awful. Even though I have dreams of becoming a famous avant-garde filmmaker or musician (ha ha ha ha ha.. right?), I dunno if devoting all my time to it is going to do anything more than just amplify my disappointment as I still am overlooked another time for someone with an art degree and "connections, maaaaaaan". Not that I'm that talented, but I certainly have more good ideas than half the assholes who get successful. So, really, devote my time to tragedy and nothingness? Eh. That might be fun, but that would be it, that's all I'd be doing. Working on new "art" products and then, eventually, "starving". It's difficult to truly make an impact on this world, because there's so much bullshit people have to wade through. And honestly, I'm not that great at getting my shit out there. I find the whole process tedious. Yeah, I'll drop some links or send some stuff over soulseek, but jesus... burning cd's/movies for people and driving 25 minutes to the post office, to wait in line, to spend money to send shit, and have to deal with all these nutso people all day? I dunno. I need to find someone to distribute my works for me more, but most people are unreliable or just aren't passionate. Not that I blame 'em.
But yeah, as for your question, if I became FILTHY rich... I'd probably just... be doing what I'm doing now.
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