[tbannach]

i had severe anxiety... sometimes i still do. and a lot of times i go through a lot of depression. and i find it odd, being a christian, especially with all the evangelical people who speak to you promising "born again" and all that jazz...that i'm depressed a lot. but then sometimes i think i just gotta remind my self that more often its going to be the little moments that are going to make your life seem more fulfilling as the "lightbulb" moments are mostly vain to try to grasp for and rare at that. And I do find it odd that a lot of intelligent people are depressed, but with that being said, being more emotionally and intellectually perceptive are something that we can use to our happiness and advantage if we give ourselves the choice. Religious, spiritual, or not, I think that the existentialist view that YOU are the ultimate reason for being and the ultimate reason for your happiness can really destroy this mentality that we are a slave to fate, or predestination or whatever... idk i guess when i think about that it picks me up a lil bit.