no need to be sorry but thanx anyway
its just really sad to watch someone falling apart in front of you and not be able to do a damn thing about it. i tried to get him to move away from all the shit he was stressing about and just get a fresh start (he wanted to go to tibet and live with monks would you believe!?) but in the end he just let everything swallow him.
i went to see a psychiatrist but i only lasted one session cos she kept trying to tell me i felt guilty and i spent the whole time trying to convince her i didnt have anything to feel guilty about, god dammit!!!
to suchfriends:
that is fucking awful to see the whole thing on tv, brings to mind a feeling of cold rage and helplessness____________