Thanks for all the sympathy, I guess I must have been looking for it. In retrospect I can see how it might seem out of the blue on here except to a few people I've opened up to more private. I just don't like to bitch about my significant other in a public forum, and with all the roller coaster we've been having some wild good times too. So those are more fun to talk and even boast about. Of course sometimes they are an effort to blow away what does not in the end blow away. Now she wants to be best friends, and I doubt I can really do that, but we will be joined together for many years due to Lennon. I don't even know that separation might not make her want to come back, or how she can even hope to afford to move out. For now I would want her to come back or change her mind and not go. I'm ready to see if I can find something that makes me feel differently though.
My son is definitely my number one priority, even above myself. I love him more than anything and will not be a deadbeat under any circumstances. I do worry about having to fight for what's best for him though, but perhaps that can be avoided. I sure hope so.
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