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Though what you said is exactly what I said to my ex-girlfriend, symbol man, who has supposedly applied at 13 places in Florida but no one will call her back. I tell her to call them to set up an interview.. "No, I don't want to do that." she says. Then, I say, "Why not apply here? Or here?" And she goes, "No, that's not for me!" So, I've said all that shit to her and she just scoffs and says I'm a dick... so, then, I care so much about her, I've given her $600 recently out of the kindness of my heart. I kinda want her to fail so she'll learn something but I love her so much that I just.. fucking.. can't... let her fail. Even beyond a relationship sense, since I know we'll probably get back together, I just love her as a person and it hurts me to see what she's doing but I know I can help her so I do, even though she probably doesn't appreciate it.
Speaking as someone who has always tried to do things the easy way, trying to not have much responsibility and all, I'm going to go ahead and say dancing is probably not too demanding of a job, and you probably wouldn't have to do it very often, and you'd make tons of money doing it. I wouldn't get too far into it, obviously, but the costs versus what you're doing actually makes it seem pretty enticing.
I dunno. I think everyone sells out a little bit, and nearly every job makes you lose a part of yourself and your soul. The government is going to break you, or the job market will, or some guys drooling over you in a g-string.. something's going to break you at some point, that's the world we live in. Still, it's better just to get it out of the way, and make shit tons of money so you can be comfortable in the future, in my opinion.
Symbol man does have a good point: Beggers can't be choosers. I tell the old lady, "Go work in a factory!" "NO, I'LL GET DIRTY!" she says. I'm just like.. jesus. If I was that hard-up for money, I'd do anything. But I'm not hard-up for money, because I work at some shit job doing bullshit for years. Have I wasted my life there? Yep. Do I have something to show for it? Yes. Was it worth it? I dunno. I could debate this all day. Working is a part of life, and life sucks, so work sucks of course. And I've also noticed that the more I get, the less I want. I have given away/sold just about everything I own in the past year. This paragraph has nothing to do with anything in this thread, just lamenting the loss of innocence.
Love you, Phoenix.
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