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i actually would like a boyfriend now, for well over a year i've been single and not interested in meeting anyone, not even thinking about it, but now that's changed. a guy asked me out on a proper date a while back which was weird. i met him for about 10 mins in a club and after he texted me wanting to take me to dinner. he was hot and seemed nice but he was a sports teacher and just seemed like he probably watched hollyoaks... maybe i'm being too harsh. another guy offered me £80 to spend the night in a hotel with him, he said it could become a regular thing and he'd pay me, i think i could have gotten him to go higher if i'd tried. he seemed honest and i beleived him when he said 'you wouldn't even have to do anything if you didn't want to and you'd still get paid' but no way was i taking that risk. after the narcissistic rush of flattery wore off i just felt kinda sorry for the dude and stupid for even considering it. because i'm only 21 i'm getting asked, but it would be sad to get to that guy's age and feel so alone that you wanted to pay guys to hang out with you in private so you could maintain your straight act in public. i hope by the time i'm his age i have people i've helped who might actually want me around. I'd much rather prefer friends and love to the straight man's dream of being able to buy rent boy's in private
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