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After cutting down first, I would still hold in my mind the persistence of how much I really do love to smoke. I love to inhale, I love to take a break from whatever I'm doing, I love summer nights on the deck alone in silence with a cigarette, I love different kinds of smokes. That's what would come up every few minutes or so when I'd remember: time for a smoke.
But after about 4-6 months (I have a broken hippocampus), that psychological attachment stopped sitting at the forefront of my mind, and 2 years later (for the past year though actually) I can honestly say that I still agree with all those statements but in a faraway, unattached, unimportant way. Having a cigar once in a while is enough for me, I just dont care that much anymore. And being so removed from it makes me feel relief that at least THAT dependency/barrier doesnt exist - life gives you enough as it is, without your control involved.
So ultimately it's about getting over the physical addiction, and yeah I'm not surprised to hear that anti-depressants are perscribed to quit smoking - it's tightly linked to dopamine. Maybe try taking some amino acids and herbs linked to supporting dopamine production in a gentle non-pharmaceutical way. I know that the amino acid L-Tyrosine is what's used to make dopamine, and you can buy that in a store.
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