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I'm still with the guy I cheated on my ex with, 9 years later. We're doing well. Why did I? Because I was 17, nervous about growing up. Even though he was my first love and we had an intense relationship, it came to a point where I didnt really know if we could go on even if we changed apart. Somehow, this friend of ours and I started hanging out and....here we are.
Even though things worked out for me and my guy, it didnt work out for the ex, at the time. Of course he and we have all long since moved on, I sincerely regret having gone about cheating to break up. So I didnt know what I wanted at the time, I still put myself though this denial that what I was doing to this person was no big deal, for my own selfish gain. Ultimately, I was so unsure about what I wanted and whether we could or SHOULD get through together, being so young to be so committed, I opted to destroy it. If anything, I should have just broken up with him, but I just couldnt do it, until I was already with the new guy. I think thats shit, but I cant change it.
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