My little brother died today.

Skuj · 09.15.2010, 11:03 PM

I'm numb. Detatched. No tears. In shock. It hasn't sunk in yet. WTF?

RIP Juris, 1965-2010.

hevusa · 09.15.2010, 11:05 PM

He was too young man. You have my condolences.
What happened?

Skuj · 09.15.2010, 11:13 PM

It's hard to say what happened. In a nutshell, too reckless/careless/depressed. Didn't care too much for the possible consequences.

My fam travels tomorrow......maybe it will really hit me when we get there, see my other bros and mum+dad.

hevusa · 09.15.2010, 11:17 PM

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Originally Posted by Skuj

It's hard to say what happened. In a nutshell, too reckless/careless/depressed. Didn't care too much for the possible consequences.

My fam travels tomorrow......maybe it will really hit me when we get there, see my other bros and mum+dad.

It will be good to see them so you can support each other.

ann ashtray · 09.15.2010, 11:27 PM

Man, so sorry to hear this. Not an easy thing to deal with, I know....

Skuj · 09.15.2010, 11:35 PM

Same thing happen to you Ann?

Thanks Hevusa.

SYRFox · 09.15.2010, 11:47 PM

I am so sorry for you man. Sincerely. You have my condolences too...

SONIC GAIL · 09.16.2010, 12:00 AM

I'm so sorry!!!!!

I won't give u the he's in a better place routine. I've been there when my momma died. I shed not one tear at her funeral. Like you I felt numb and detatched like it was a really bad dream. I watched her suffer for 6 months with cancer and was actually relieved when she died and I have always felt guilty for that. Death was her release though and I new that even at my naive age. Everyone knew she was going to die including her. It was just a tortorous waiting game. I am really starting to deal with it now 14 years later.

I wish she could have seen me get married and meet my kids. She woulda been the best grandma. She was a good woman, as near to perfect as you can get. She had a strong faith in god and helped everyone around her except herself. Instead of turning me away from god as most young deaths often do to people it made me believe even more and I know she will meet me in heaven one day.(please don't take this as me trying to give you a bible lesson or something, I am not sure of your faith system and am not trying to offend it's just all I know and how I deal) I did not start crying untill about 5 years after she died. I always thought my family was the perfect non divorced happy family, but now I have a step mom step sisters and my daddy aint the man I used to know.

Sorry for the rant I had to stop drawing for a minute. Going on 4 1/2 hours straight now.

Anyway, I will keep you in my prayers and do not beat yrself up for not crying and numbing out it is completely natural. Everyone reacts to this shit in different ways. It's just the brains way of dealing with shock.

tw2113 · 09.16.2010, 12:05 AM

Sorry to hear it happened

ann ashtray · 09.16.2010, 12:07 AM

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Originally Posted by Skuj

Same thing happen to you Ann?

Thanks Hevusa.

A brother, no. Someone that might as well have been, yes. I'm not going to say "I know how you feel", because I don't. But I know it was really rough for me and I dread ever having to deal with it again. For me, the emotions went in phases. It was "no way, jose", to shock, to anger, to extreme sadness that lasted for a matter of months. It became, for me, more "tolerable" over the course of time, which isn't to say that I don't have days, sometimes, to where a certain song is playing or I stumble across a picture + don't break down again. I miss 'em, but I celebrate him at the same time.

Really, dude. I feel bad for your situation.

Dr. Eugene Felikson · 09.16.2010, 12:22 AM

I'm not too good with words when it comes to these things, but I feel for ya' Skuj.

DeadDiscoDildo · 09.16.2010, 01:23 AM

Sorry Skuj. I have no words of wisdom or advice. To each his own grievences.

atsonicpark · 09.16.2010, 01:30 AM

Sorry to hear this man. That's awful.

_slavo_ · 09.16.2010, 01:57 AM

Sorry for what happened, accept my condolences.

Satan · 09.16.2010, 01:59 AM

that really sucks, i'm sorry man.

stu666 · 09.16.2010, 02:18 AM

i'm sorry to hear of yr loss Skuj.

ploesj · 09.16.2010, 02:41 AM

i'm so sorry to hear that skuj. there's probably noting i can say but i do wish you and your whole family all the strength you need.

FreshChops · 09.16.2010, 05:32 AM

so sorry skuj. It's times like this it's so comforting to know how well you take care of yourself, all athletic and all that you are and make the most of your time as a proud papa! peace brotha'

noisereductions · 09.16.2010, 07:09 AM

I am sorry.

knox · 09.16.2010, 08:33 AM

I'm so sorry.

09.15.2010, 11:03 PM	#1
Skuj invito al cielo Join Date: May 2009 Location: See My Top 10. Posts: 2,825	I'm numb. Detatched. No tears. In shock. It hasn't sunk in yet. WTF? RIP Juris, 1965-2010. __________________ March 15th. June 15th. September 15th. December 15th.
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hevusa expwy. to yr skull Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: rain hell Posts: 1,535	He was too young man. You have my condolences. What happened?
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09.15.2010, 11:13 PM	#3
Skuj invito al cielo Join Date: May 2009 Location: See My Top 10. Posts: 2,825	It's hard to say what happened. In a nutshell, too reckless/careless/depressed. Didn't care too much for the possible consequences. My fam travels tomorrow......maybe it will really hit me when we get there, see my other bros and mum+dad. __________________ March 15th. June 15th. September 15th. December 15th.
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09.15.2010, 11:27 PM	#5
ann ashtray expwy. to yr skull Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Macon, GA Posts: 2,299	Man, so sorry to hear this. Not an easy thing to deal with, I know.... __________________ Team Thurston!
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09.15.2010, 11:35 PM	#6
Skuj invito al cielo Join Date: May 2009 Location: See My Top 10. Posts: 2,825	Same thing happen to you Ann? Thanks Hevusa. __________________ March 15th. June 15th. September 15th. December 15th.
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09.15.2010, 11:47 PM	#7
SYRFox invito al cielo Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Paris Posts: 7,492	I am so sorry for you man. Sincerely. You have my condolences too...
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09.16.2010, 12:00 AM	#8
SONIC GAIL invito al cielo Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: I moved from hillbilly Florida to hillbilly Alabama Posts: 3,723	I'm so sorry!!!!! I won't give u the he's in a better place routine. I've been there when my momma died. I shed not one tear at her funeral. Like you I felt numb and detatched like it was a really bad dream. I watched her suffer for 6 months with cancer and was actually relieved when she died and I have always felt guilty for that. Death was her release though and I new that even at my naive age. Everyone knew she was going to die including her. It was just a tortorous waiting game. I am really starting to deal with it now 14 years later. I wish she could have seen me get married and meet my kids. She woulda been the best grandma. She was a good woman, as near to perfect as you can get. She had a strong faith in god and helped everyone around her except herself. Instead of turning me away from god as most young deaths often do to people it made me believe even more and I know she will meet me in heaven one day.(please don't take this as me trying to give you a bible lesson or something, I am not sure of your faith system and am not trying to offend it's just all I know and how I deal) I did not start crying untill about 5 years after she died. I always thought my family was the perfect non divorced happy family, but now I have a step mom step sisters and my daddy aint the man I used to know. Sorry for the rant I had to stop drawing for a minute. Going on 4 1/2 hours straight now. Anyway, I will keep you in my prayers and do not beat yrself up for not crying and numbing out it is completely natural. Everyone reacts to this shit in different ways. It's just the brains way of dealing with shock. __________________
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09.16.2010, 12:05 AM	#9
tw2113 expwy. to yr skull Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: South Dakota Posts: 2,156	Sorry to hear it happened __________________ Shake shake
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09.16.2010, 12:22 AM	#11
Dr. Eugene Felikson invito al cielo Join Date: Jun 2008 Posts: 7,571	I'm not too good with words when it comes to these things, but I feel for ya' Skuj.
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09.16.2010, 01:23 AM	#12
DeadDiscoDildo invito al cielo Join Date: Apr 2008 Posts: 3,805	Sorry Skuj. I have no words of wisdom or advice. To each his own grievences.
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09.16.2010, 01:30 AM	#13
atsonicpark invito al cielo Join Date: Apr 2006 Posts: 28,843	Sorry to hear this man. That's awful. __________________
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09.16.2010, 01:57 AM	#14
_slavo_ invito al cielo Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: Ðîññèÿ Posts: 10,912	Sorry for what happened, accept my condolences. __________________ you're the boy that can enjoy invisibility
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09.16.2010, 01:59 AM	#15
Satan invito al cielo Join Date: Jul 2006 Location: noo yawk Posts: 6,331	that really sucks, i'm sorry man. __________________ "I love meth." - batreleaser
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09.16.2010, 02:18 AM	#16
stu666 Super Moderator Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: Stowmarket Posts: 13,505	i'm sorry to hear of yr loss Skuj. __________________ http://tapewormstu.blogspot.co.uk/
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09.16.2010, 02:41 AM	#17
ploesj invito al cielo Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: antwerp. Posts: 2,901	i'm so sorry to hear that skuj. there's probably noting i can say but i do wish you and your whole family all the strength you need. __________________ blog flickr
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09.16.2010, 05:32 AM	#18
FreshChops 100% Join Date: Jun 2009 Posts: 738	so sorry skuj. It's times like this it's so comforting to know how well you take care of yourself, all athletic and all that you are and make the most of your time as a proud papa! peace brotha' __________________
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09.16.2010, 07:09 AM	#19
noisereductions invito al cielo Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: New England, USA Posts: 16,210	I am sorry. __________________ noisereduxinstalled.weebly.com
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09.16.2010, 08:33 AM	#20
knox invito al cielo Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 5,255	I'm so sorry. __________________
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