[choc e-Claire]

Originally Posted by choc e-Claire

damn I wish I could just talk to this girl...

Update: I just headbutted the girl in the face. Having a crush is going soooooo well.

[!@#$%!]

Originally Posted by choc e-Claire

Update: I just headbutted the girl in the face. Having a crush is going soooooo well.

lmfao

she makes you nervous, huh?

good sign...

[choc e-Claire]

Admittedly saying it like that makes it sound as bad as it can be.

She has a boyfriend. That's not great, but I'm definitely making friends with her, and she seems like a really sweet person who enjoys talking - she's been happy to see me.
And the headbutt happened when we were going for a hug. She just laughed it off and we tried again, more successfully.

Turns out that's a good way to get yourself out of a depression: fuck up in an absurdly comical way.

[!@#$%!]

haha what?

i meant she makes you nervous and therefore clumsy

i used to get tongue-tied lmfao

ok i gotta go you have fun out there

[SonicSleuth]

Married 10 years this month. On our first date 12 years ago, I noticed a Daydream Nation LP in her living room.

[choc e-Claire]

You know what? Fuck it.

I'm in the progress of asking some of my friends from school if they have any gay friends, in the hope that they could try and connect us, maybe go on a few test dates or whatever.
Fingers crossed.

EDIT: The first friend I told about this told me that one of my friends was and that he kinda liked me. But the really awkward part is I don't really like him...

[choc e-Claire]

Crush knows I have a crush on her. I'd asked her to hang out, but she said that she has a boyfriend and she wouldn't feel comfortable with the feelings involved.

[choc e-Claire]

I've got a gf

[!@#$%!]

Originally Posted by choc e-Claire

I've got a gf

ah! congrats

a new kind of suffering begins!

[choc e-Claire]

Originally Posted by !@#$%!

ah! congrats

a new kind of suffering begins!

Yeah, I guess - insecurity on a whole new level.

Her name's Lilac, she's 18 and British. It's a long distance relationship, which I know is awkward, but we really like each other, we have shared experiences...IDK, I'm just happy about it.

[!@#$%!]

Originally Posted by choc e-Claire

Yeah, I guess - insecurity on a whole new level.

Her name's Lilac, she's 18 and British. It's a long distance relationship, which I know is awkward, but we really like each other, we have shared experiences...IDK, I'm just happy about it.

eh, long distance beats non existence any day! it’s a good thing.

insecurity, anxiety, hunger and all that good stuff that makes life interesting, ha ha ha. you ever read sappho? one of the best poets on the subject that ever lived. check her maybe some day.

anyway, enjoy this life, teenager! hahaha, to be 17 was exciting and hilarious. i hope you get to make many great memories.

[d.sound]

So bizarre. The person with whom I had broken up, who I thought was unhealthy for me... We had a huge conversation, everything suddenly inverted and now we bonded on a deeper level and I realize this is about to be the first healthy relationship I will have ever had.

My mind has been blowing since wednesday. I don't know when I will wrap my head around it. It makes me laugh when it crosses my mind.

Oh. And apparently polyamory might be right for me. So weird. She has another partner and we know about each other. I legitimately, honestly don't feel conflicted about it. I feel like logic should be telling me this shouldn't work but logic is telling me otherwise.

Originally Posted by !@#$%!

you ever read sappho?

I read through some of her stuff the other day. (note to self: did i return that?) She actually only has fragments of poems that survived. A lot of poems accredited to her are false.
This version, it had the words of each poem placed on the page where they would be, the missing words left blank. Very beautiful. Some pages are just one word.

Allegedly she was a genius composer. Her poems are actually lyrics.

Woo lesbians. I met a married l3s couple today at temple. It had a bit of a feeling of like "hey you. I see you. We are the same."
We talked about Pet Sounds and Smile.

[d.sound]

HeeeeAaarttt.
Love is dumb.
And fun.
Tonight anyway.
I have never been able to tell if the joy of love outweighs the torture. It's nice right now though. The suddenly twist around and sit upside down on a chair like a kid from glee kind of nice.
It's also fun to have a reason to look and feel pretty. I wore this sweater tonight that is fun because it's ratger risque but no one can tell. I have it as a kind of sexy stage thing but it crosses over well for the purposes of flirtation and courtship.
I don't know what genius designed this sweater but it's badass. The thread is a color that, well, matches the aeriolas. It's threaded in a way that leaves a lot of space so you can see skin through it. Somehow the effect is that you don't need to wear a bra, and no one can tell. You can straight up see my breasts, you can tell by the shape I'm not wearing a bra. My aeriolas are totally exposed but because of the color if the thread you can't see.

Add to that wind, sun, sweat and a woman's skin sensitivity, it's a bit of fun. Playing live has stimuli like that so it adds a subtle layer of sexy feelings.

[EVOLghost]

single as fuhhh....




it's a bittersweet feeling at the moment...

[EVOLghost]

actually I take that back....it's been pretty good.