[floatingslowly]

Originally Posted by !@#$%!

you could also go on a water fast & kick caffeine. after 3 days of headaches you'll be clear-headed & calm. no workouts during that period though.

honestly, caffeine might have a lot to do with it.

I only drank one cup of coffee in the morning for a few weeks, and then quit completely....and that might be the point where I started to melt down.

I then overdosed the next day and went the complete opposite direction. I wanted to blame insanity, and stress (because I love caffeine) but maybe that's not helping AT ALL.

why no working out? really? 3 days? gah


that said, I've never had a problem before, and I used to mainline that shit...

[SuchFriendsAreDangerous]

Originally Posted by space

how do you find it when you need it?

my usual coping skills have left me.

I am in a state of high-flux, with the inability to even begin to think about where I am going to take myself, until time has passed.

I leave for australia to meet the one I love in less than three weeks. my only activities are working out, art and milking time from old job as I can (the ability to do even that is becoming and less and less as time goes by).

I am in a "strange" city (old/new) with no friends, I do not get high and I am trying not to spend money.

silly worries haunt me like never before. maybe they aren't so silly, but worry doesn't serve me right now, and I need to become more calm, focused and, well, happy.

what should I do? or rather, what would you do?

I can't promise to take yr advice, but there's a few clever people around here, so I figured that it couldn't hurt.

ps: the first person to post a Guns 'n Roses video will get neg-repped by every user-name I possess. thanks.

first and foremost you must stay grounded and in contact and communication with the Source of Life. Without it, all the flux and motion of the universe will overwhelm your perceptive abilities and bring about chaos. personally, I smoke a lot of herb to slow down life and live in real time as close as possible, after all the endocannibanoid system is designed to aid the mind in prioritizing income sensory perception and to forget unnecessary things like the million faces you see a day, and so herb is perfect to continue this process. As Bob said, "When you smoke herb it reveals you to yourself."

so

a) stay in touch with your inner source, after all god(s) himself endures the same troubles

b) force a smile or two and stay exceptionally busy with a lot of people interaction, this keeps the spirit flowing and keeps the mind off of too much introspection and worrying.

b) smoke some weed

[space]

I "gave up" weed months ago, but some of it might not be a bad idea at this point. I'd rather chill the fuck out than give up on everything.

the people interaction has been at a minimum, and I'm not sure what god has to say in all of this.

ps: yr pm's are full. ethiopian food sounds good to me. my treat. I don't leave until July 2nd, but my schedule is open until then.

[!@#$%!]

Originally Posted by floatingslowly

honestly, caffeine might have a lot to do with it.

I only drank one cup of coffee in the morning for a few weeks, and then quit completely....and that might be the point where I started to melt down.

I then overdosed the next day and went the complete opposite direction. I wanted to blame insanity, and stress (because I love caffeine) but maybe that's not helping AT ALL.

why no working out? really? 3 days? gah


that said, I've never had a problem before, and I used to mainline that shit...

oh it was just an idea. caffeine tends to make me jittery. i know you used to mainline that shit but that was probably what kept you going in a depressing situation.

caffeine withdrawal can mimic depression though. same symptoms. i think a lot of people self-medicate depression with caffeine.

anyway, why not working out, you ask-- if you do a WATER fast, it's a shock to your system and you'll feel restless and you don't wanna strain your immune system by breaking down protein and then not replenishing it.

i'm not saying do that-- i'm saying if you do, you need to do it while resting.

suchfriends will probably vouch for the effectiveness of fasts to clarify the brain-- it's not for everyone however, you need to plan and execute it correctly or you can hurt yourself.

[space]

oh, so yr saying not to eat, but only drink water.

that might be hard. my hair is already coming out too fast for it's own good.

I'm already in shock, and I think it's made my mental status go for the worse.

besides, ethiopian food sounds mighty good.


that said, just bought Howl's Moving Castle, Nausicaa (dvds) and Ponyo (on blu-ray/dvd) for an attempt at peaceful moments.

[!@#$%!]

Originally Posted by space

oh, so yr saying not to eat, but only drink water.

that might be hard. my hair is already coming out too fast for it's own good.

I'm already in shoc, and I think it's made my mental status go for the worse.

besides, ethiopian food sounds mighty good.

oh. then just find some good pills. sweet sweet sweet pills.

and mainline again dude.

i'd say go to nevada & consort with whores but i know you not into that shit-- ha!

oh i gotta go game is back.

[girlgun]

Oh hi. I'm right here.

[Glice]

 

Hello, girlgun.

[!@#$%!]

Originally Posted by girlgun

Oh hi. I'm right here.

wowza. the plot thickens.

[girlgun]

it's a thick plot for sure, but i wish floating space nothing but happiness.

[!@#$%!]

Originally Posted by girlgun

it's a thick plot for sure, but i wish floating space nothing but happiness.

nice of you!

seriously.

[Genteel Death]

Hello.

[!@#$%!]

ps- rob asks if you're seeing someone

[girlgun]

hey genteel.

yeah symbol guy. i'm classy ass bitch fo sho. the internets are not the place to hash out shit or look for anything other than a smart ass remark, as you well know.

[girlgun]

Originally Posted by !@#$%!

ps- rob asks if you're seeing someone

if only! i already know rob has got a hot bitch.

[nicfit]

nice people stay nice.

[!@#$%!]

Originally Posted by girlgun

yeah symbol guy. i'm classy ass bitch fo sho. the internets are not the place to hash out shit or look for anything other than a smart ass remark, as you well know.

you are. and i do.

Originally Posted by girlgun

if only! i already know rob has got a hot bitch.

yes, but if there's someone who could tempt him, that'd be you, ha ha ha!

[girlgun]

nic... i'm far too nice, although a doomsdayer.... learned my lessons well. as i said, i've got nothing but nice things to say. except about the freakshow on jeopardy right now. i'm not down with his leather blazer. or his facial hair style.

symbol guy... rob is all talk. he's just a sweet, good boy.

[!@#$%!]

Originally Posted by girlgun

symbol guy... rob is all talk.

so are we all! -- words on a screen.

anyway, gotta get off the interwebs-- i hope you're well, etc.

[EVOLghost]