[phoenix]

In my own inner world things are fine. Its just not the same though, on the outside. and I get really deflated.

italian to english always words so interestingly.

[Norma J]

I have lots of friends, but then the saturday just gone, I found myself sitting alone at home. So no matter hoooow many friends you have, you still get lonely.

This realllly beautiful girl is into me and I'm very much enjoying her presence and company. She is incredibly beautiful and artistic.
AND, my ex and I are getting along so well as great friends, which we are both also really pleased about.
I've also met alot more new faces within the last few weeks, which is really nice.

[phoenix]

thats great to hear, that yr feeling a lot better.

[Disgruntled Youth]

Let me be honest this message board held me down for a while. When I lived in Miami I went to the Library every day just to get online or read. Most of my friends down their are married & barely ever hang out..

[Norma J]

Phoenix: Yes, I am. Thanks.

I'd rather chat to you lot than my friends or family. It suddenly dawned on me that you are much better than the lot of them. I've had it, so had it.

[!@#$%!]

Originally Posted by sarramkrop

I'd rather chat to you lot than my friends or family. It suddenly dawned on me that you are much better than the lot of them. I've had it, so had it.

we're not better-- you just can't smell us, and you can make us go away with the click of a mouse. i guess in that sense yeah we're "better", but if we actually had to interact wi in person for long periods of time my guess is you'd end up throwing a pan full of hot oil at a great majority of we the people.

I don't understand my friends at all. I'm always there for them, I always put on a brave face on, but when shit happens to me I am the one who is always meant to be the strong one and take it. I am so sick of it, so very sick.

[Crumb's Crunchy Delights]

the true test of friendship is not expecting anything from your friends

ask not what your friends can do for you but what you can do for your friends

[mangajunky]

Originally Posted by Rob Instigator

you need to go to the library

Oddly enough I was going to suggest this...there are lots of cool social scenes around the library. I live across the street from a library here in Englewood.

Also try meetup groups.

If you lived around here I'd suggest hanging out with one of my dorky social groups. Like all the drunken scooterists. We have a Kiwi and an Aussie round these parts too.

[phoenix]

there are lots of aussies where I live. unfort its not that easy to find someone I mix well with.

scooters and drunken does not sound like my kind of mates tho? Im more of a drunken satirist.

[Pookie]

Where are you?

[phoenix]

australia

[Pookie]

That would explain the Aussies I guess.

[phoenix]

mostly.

[Kloriel]

Don't worry, Chief Thunder will always be your friend. He has to. He says your name every time he shoots a fireball.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a4IKAPd0AGU

Originally Posted by phoenix

hello phoenix, how are you?

good thnx

lets make muffins

k

[floatingslowly]

Originally Posted by Kloriel

Chief Thunder

I'm so very jealous of his name.

[Alex's Trip]

My fag hag got a boyfriend, and I'm jealous.

Back of my bitch, bitch!

[Norma J]

Originally Posted by Nefeli

ah that one..right...
do you know the feeling when you start saying smth uncool that bothers you, even if its a small thing and the other picks up your last line and starts telling his/her story? or they just listen and there is silence!?
i agree with not expecting from your friends, i m on the same wave
but there are limits, especially like what you describe, when smth really shitty happens to you.

maybe they arent used to you telling about your problems, or expressing feelings and darker thoughts. they are used to you being easygoing, funny, strong and find themselves in a situation where they dont know how to handle, when you express smth complicated and sad.

Yeah, I have friends like that. I recently ended a three year relationship, and I didn't hear one iota from any of my friends, yet they all knew. Although when a few of them split from their partners after only a few months, I was still there for them when they were weeping and pissing themselves.
I got more condolences etc, from people I don't know that well.
While from my friends I got phone msgs, and mysapce msgs saying "come over and get drunk". Like that was going to solve the heartache?
I'd be extreeeeemly pissed off at them and hold a grudge, if I wasn't as independantly as strong as I am and can get myself through things being alone.

[SuchFriendsAreDangerous]

Originally Posted by phoenix

my socialness over the past two years has kind of gone down to nill.


and it is starting to really get to me.

A groan of tedium escapes me, startling the fearful.
Is this a test?
It has to be. otherwise I cant go on.
Draining patience. drain vitality.
This paranoid, paralyzed vampire acts a little old.

But Im still right here, giving blood and keeping faith. and Im still right
Here.
But Im still right here, giving blood and keeping faith. and Im still right
Here.

Im gonna wait it out

If there were no rewards to reap,
No loving embrace to see me through this tedious path Ive chosen here,
I certainly wouldve walked away by now.

Im gonna wait it out

If there were no desire to heal
The damaged and broken met along this tedious path Ive chosen here,
I certainly wouldve walked away by now.

I still may. and I still may.
Be patient.

I must keep reminding myself of this...

If there were no rewards to reap,
No loving embrace to see me through this tedious path Ive chosen here,
I certainly wouldve walked away by now.
And I still may. and I still may. and I still may.

Im gonna wait it out.
Im gonna wait it out.
Gonna wait it out.
Gonna wait it out.