I'm sad.
 

I'm having Mouse down at 4 today, it's going to kill me. I hate that it's my choice to do this, but I don't want him living in pain and he's getting up there and hasn't been looking well in the longest time.
I know it's the right thing but it's so fucking hard spending my last couple of hours with him, then I'll never see him again.
I fucking hate myself right now, and I fucking hate nature for not taking him in his sleep.

sorry about your mouse

but hate yourself? why??

Because I've been debating for the past two weeks or so whether I should put him down or not. I hate that he's my pet so I have to make the choice. I'll always wonder whether he could have lived longer with some quality of life or not. It's just so hard to tell with him if he's in pain or not. That's the thing. I think it's time though, better now than waiting until something really bad happens to him that will make me hate myself even more.

That make me happy, I've always wanted a hug from one of those guys.

I'm sorry. :(

i see, you have a tough decision to make and you hate yourself for not being able to make up your mind?

well, as far as i can tell, you care a great deal about your pet, and you're taking responsibility, so you're doing the best you can. for that alone i'd give you props.

if you feel your going back and forth was harming him, self-loathing won't help you though. but you've made up your mind, so it's alright. yes it will be tough, but making decisions and living with the consequences is part of growing up. welcome to the club. :(

i'm sorry. i know how you feel, when my cat was sick i knew that it was bad and it was time and although i did not want him to die i didnt want to watch him in so much pain and my last hours with him where very painful. cried like a baby for hours. i knew it was the best thing to do.

All of these pets dying are making me sad :(

But yes I'm sure you made the right decision EMMAh so don't hate yourself.

:(

that's sad indeed.

I always wanted a mouse. or a pet. or a fish...

i'm sorry to hear that emmah, stay strong chuck.

im sorry you have to make that choice . but youre doing it out of love .
he looks very sweet .

I'm sorry Emma. :(

oh god, emma, i'm sorry :(

i know how easy it is to get attached to pets. my hammy is my life.

be strong, emmah, sympathies go out to you.

things like these are never easy.

i'm sorry. that's just so sad.

I'm sorry to hear this, Emmah.

I'm a big pet lover. All my life, practically since I was a little boy, I've owned pets of some kind. As an adult, I've owned dogs who have been wonderful companions. The sad and cliched fact is, they die. We outlast their short little bursts of existence. I've had to put down several dogs who got old and sick, and it doesn't get easier no matter how many times I've done it. But I wouldn't give up the wonderful companionship for the time they're here, for anything in the world.

You'll grieve over this, but don't hate yourself. Please.

Thanks guys. I know I did the right thing, I would rather it than watching him suffer without really being sure.
I'm still upset, but it's easier now that it's done because I don't have to look at him in those little red eyes and think that I'm the one sending him off to death. It's hard not to be selfish when it comes to something you love I guess.

that's gotta hurt.
i'm sorry.
please, cheer up. for whatever reason you could pick.
just force yrself doing it.
Mouse would be glad about it.

Sorry to hear that, Emmah.

I think he'd be happy this way too. He was just about 3 and always getting those nose bleed type things (mostly through his eyes) that aren't actually nose bleeds. He had a tumor between his front legs too. Rats tumors aren't always cancerous but I just have a feeling that this one was. He started getting really shaky the last couple days and it just broke my heart to think that he was in even the slightest amount of pain.

hey emmah, you did the right thing and showed a lot of courage and compassion.