[cryptowonderdruginvogue]

How is everyone?

[fugazifan]

well
and yourself?

[MellySingsDoom]

Pretty OK thanks, crypto. I hope that you're keeping as well as always.

[vulva]

Better now that I've heard from you <3

[SYRFox]

I'm fine.
And I hope you're fine as well.

[ploesj]

i'm fine, just busy. as usual, but even more. hope you're ok too!

[HECKLER SPRAY]

Hi Crypto, what's up ?
Always partying till the early hours of the morning ?
I'm fine, thanks.

[pokkeherrie]

Originally Posted by cryptowonderdruginvogue

How is everyone?

We're all dead inside.

[Rob Instigator]

I am doing great, getting ready to assult the westheimer block party in 2 weeks

[!@#$%!]

Originally Posted by pokkeherrie

We're all dead inside.

i'm just posting here to confirm this

[SuchFriendsAreDangerous]

Originally Posted by cryptowonderdruginvogue

How is everyone?

Originally Posted by atsonicpark

But that's after recording 1000 songs. So, fuck, everyone's going to have some amazing songs after 1000, unless it's the Smashing Pumpkins or something. But yeah. I really enjoy doing Robe., that's the happiest I've ever been with a band, because I feel like I could do anything. I feel like no instrument is frustrating to play anymore, because I am intelligent enough to implement it in such a way where no matter what bullshit I play, I can effect it enough where it sounds okay. I like that. That's what really attracts me to drone. At the end of the day, with drone music, the sum.. the whole.. it's all about the whole, not the sum. I mean, the way the piece moves, not the riffs or chords or notes or melodies or whatever. That sentence was stupid. But you know what I mean. You can do anything. It's limitless. I like piling on thick layers of darkness. I hate doing Scissor Shock now, I feel like it's too limiting, I'm only going to do one more album with that band probably. But Robe.!!... I think I have a bright future there. Just need to play live more. I hate playing live though. Never comes off the way I want it to and I'm too lazy and uncaring to purchase 500 effects pedals and huge ass $463676376 amps to make sound happen. That's all Sunn O))) is, you know. One finger riffs with expensive ass amps. I mean, it's ridiculous. With a loud enough amp.. that's all you need. The physical force of the sound. Don't get me wrong, I love Sunn. But they're really not doing anything that special. I'd rather listen to Niblock's guitar album. I love movies... I want to shoot an experimental film. I want to shoot MANY. Giuseppe Andrews is such a good director. He makes me happy. Him and Kitano!! But man.. I could never be THAT good. I think with music, there are no limits. I feel with film, even though the same could easily be said by anyone with common sense after only thinking about it for 5 seconds.......... but with film, I feel there are limits. I guess they're self-imposed but movies that lack direction usually lose people. Music can be directionless and still be okay to identify with. But a completely directionless movie? A movie made of random, incoherent images? Who's going to watch that shit? Go download NASTY FUCKING TITTY EATER off of archive.org and see how much you can watch of that. Just random images for 90 minutes. I love it but.. who else does? I constantly find that the more experimental movies I like are the ones every "normal" person hates. Whatever. It's just entertainment. I waste too much time on entertainment. I have plenty of money, I live in the woods, and I have access to decent drugs.. I don't want to do drugs that are too extreme... acid's about as extreme as I'd ever do.. but man, I love the woods. I truely love them, I should really enjoy myself more. I guess I just hate myself. I guess that's what happens when you strive to help people and constantly get walked on for being too nice. It's my own fault. I haven't had a bad life, despite the molestation and abuse when I was younger, but I've honestly forgotten about all that except being hit and it's not like it's fucked me up or anything. I think I have my head screwed on pretty straight, but have you ever noticed how many supposed "geniuses" have killed themselves? I think what intelligent people (and trust me, I'm no genius, but by using proper punctuation and spelling usually, I'm smarter than probably at least 75% of Americans) figure out is that life, ultimately, is pointless. I think it's my OCD. But I feel like I'm building and building and building.. but I'll never reach my goal. I guess that's really the strangest thing in my life. The feeling that I'll never be complete. And I hate it.

Originally Posted by Dead-Air

After ten years since she last worked as a stripper, my wife has started doing it again for extra money.

I'm overall in support of this, because we need the money and it's led to an openness between us we've needed badly for a looong time. I'm seeing a side of her I'd always known was there somewhere (we've been together 8 years now) but not really visualized. The practice sessions have been amazing a led to some amazing sex that tops anything we'd experienced in all of our time together. I've found that her being an exhibitionist within set boundaries is something I not only can handle, but seem to really get into.

Of course I worry about those boundaries, but I worry more about her safety. Last night was actually her first night working and she came home a bit shocked at being reminded how hard of work it really is. I'm hoping she can move to a club closer to home, because currently she has a half hour drive, which is hard on both of us.

So yeah, I guess that'd be why I started this thread. Life is extremely weird feeling at the moment. More good than bad, but turned upside down (and money is bad enough that there is still bad for sure). Keep in mind that my wife had really moved beyond this earlier part of her life, and shown no interest in ever setting foot inside a club in our whole relationship. In fact, I've acted more conservative about a lot of sexual things than I am because I thought she would dislike my real desires. Turns out we've both been doing that for years, like fools really.

I'll just keep it simple.. I am doing very well. No drugs, no scary women, no legal problems, no guns, no violence, haven't been arrested in a few years, even got a college degree now (two actually)..

but in regards to some other folks, I have definitely been there..

[nicfit]

I'm dead outside.

[phoenix]

hi there.

[HaydenAsche]

I miss you too, crypto. When are we gonna hang out?